Ok, so from what i hear, certain people don’t exactly enjoy country music. I kind of understand where they’re coming from. Country music generally involves lots of “downs” when speaking of relationship “ups and downs.” But there are certain songs that contain some really great and meaningful lyrics that may mean something to certain people. So yeah, this certain person should check out a certain song on someone’s myspace. HAHA!

I know, I know. I haven’t posted in ages. The only reason i haven’t lately is because i’ve been so busy. Like crazy busy. First of all, I’ve been working a lot, then I began studying for my driving test, I’ve also babysat for my parents, rearranged my room and got a new queen sized bed, saw two awesome movies, hung out with jesse and my cousin, oh and…what am i forgetting..hmmm….oh yeah, I GOT MY LICENSE! Im a big kid on the block now.Haha. Now all i have to do is put that dang radiator in my car then i’ll be going everywhere. Well, not everywhere. My parents decided that this first month of driving, I can only drive to school and to work. It kind of sucks but i understand. They’re just tryin to protect me. No big deal.

Anyways, I missed school today to get my license and even though tomorrow’s friday and i know the teachers probably won’t teach much, im going. I really wanna see my best friend. I miss him so freaking much. I haven’t seen him at all over this break. I can’t wait to wake up, get to school and see his face. It’s the highlight of my day. So…until tomorrow….

Yay for Valentine’s Day. I woke up this morning, filled my heart shaped basket with kisses and headed off to school. Once I arrived I was greeted by two great friends and we exchanged Valentine gifts. I recieved a heart-shaped cookie with my name on it and a bag full of candy. Boy did I have a sugar rush (and crash) today. It felt great to give all of my friends SUPERMAN cards and chocolate. And even though I didn’t recieve anything AMAZING, the smiles on my friends faces were worth it. Towards the end of the day, I started feeling a bit sad. So many couples were walking down the halls, girls’ arms filled with gifts from their caring boyfriends, and there I was with a blow-pop and an un-personalized carebear valentine card. Bummer right?I know. After school, me and my aunt grabbed some Mcdonalds and ate at my grandfather’s house. It was very pleasant. After about 20 min. of visiting, it was time to go home and get ready for work. When I walked in the door to my house, I surprised. On my table sat a dozen red roses, hershey kisses (since I had given mine away to friends) and a giant heart-shaped balloon with the words “I love you” and “you and me” all over it. I knew it had to be from jesse. It was the best surprise ever, I was almost certain he would get me nothing due to our current (or should i say past) situation. I called and thanked him with my whole heart and soul and then he proceeded to tell me that that wasn’t all. Saturday he plans to take me out. He has the entire day planned. I’m so excited. All in all, Valentine’s Day was great, filled with smiles, hugs, and chocolate. Who could ask for more???

Today I stayed home from school and was extremely bored but also felt extremely sick. Like near death sick. I called in at work also. I hate not going to school though. Even if i am sick, I usually go, but there was just something about today. I don’t know what it was. I spent my day on the couch flipping channels and doing homework so I wouldn’t have to tomorrow night. I think ahead.

Anyways, this past weekend has been pretty interesting. Lots of ups and downs. I broke up with my boyfriend and was ready to jump straight into another relationship, but the guy wasn’t, so i gave up quickly. But its ok, i’m not that upset. Me and my ex are talking again, and most likely going to get bak together. I just can’t see myself getting over him, we’ve been through way too much stuff. He’s always been there for me in the past and I know he’s got my back in the future. This other guy seems too good to be true anyways, I guess we’re just better off as friends.

I also took my ACT saturday. I think I did really well, except for the math. We’ll see in a few weeks.

Today was poifect. The weather was decent, my hair was working for me, and I aced a test I didn’t even know about. I also found out that I made it into Senior Project. I’m very excited. Next year I’ll be able to see what it’s like behind the scenes of being a teacher with the help of my mentor Mrs. Allan. It shall be fun.

So this weekend is the ACT. I’m so nervous, but I think I’m ready. I just need to look over the science section a bit. That’s the only part I’m really nervous about. I’m sure I’ll do fine, and even if i’m not satisfied with my score, I can always take it again.

I read a journal yesterday, and it was interesting. I wonder what he was talkin about, because whatever it was made me smile. Hopefully I wasn’t smiling for the wrong reason.

I’m happy today. I had a good day today. I smiled, laughed, and embraced today.

Ok, that was corny, but i did have a really good day. I found out that i have a 97 in Espanol. Yay me! I was also very proud of myself when I got most of the answers right on my algebra act practice in class. While the rest of the class cheated and copied answers, i worked hard and it paid off. Also English went fairly well. No nervousness, no sadness, the only negative part of the class was the synthesis essay we had to write. I’m soooo glad those aren’t for grades. I definitely need to work on my writing. \

After school I went to my grandma’s where I ate a bowl of popcorn and talked about plans for my new car with my dad. We decided to paint it white with red racing stripes. It’s going to be the coolest old car in the history of coolest old cars.

Work also went very well. Even though I didn’t feel well, I had a lot of fun, singing, dancing, and cutting pizzas. I did manage to burn myself three times. Once with marina sauce, and the other two on the oven. It hurt!!!!

 Well thats all for today, hopefully tomorrow will be just as good!!!

OK, so I’m officially obsessed with this band. All of their songs pertain to the current situation in my life. Wow, that makes my life seem so dramatic. Well it’s not, I just wish I could’ve changed somethings. There’s a song called “Tide” and one line really means a lot to me….”Heaven’s not a place to go when u die, it’s a moment in your life when you actually feel alive, so live for the moment”…..Yeah, I definitely love that line. When thinking about it, I realized I already had that moment, or at least I could’ve had it. I had about 30 seconds of it, and then I went and screwed it up by making the wrong choice. There’s another song titled “So Much”. It talks about butterflies in your stomach bringing you to your knees. Everyday when I turn the corner towards Eng. class, the butterflies start off in my stomach, but soon take over my entire body and I’m a wreck as he sits in the seat behind me. It kind of feels like my first real crush. I try to be perfect around him. I make jokes, I try to impress him, I make sure I don’t smile too much but that I do smile enough. I wish there was something I could do to change this. But I don’t want to mess up anything for him, because all I want is his happiness, no matter what that means for me. But I want him to know that I’m sorry I didn’t make a decision fast enough and that he felt he had to do it for me. If I had another chance, I know for sure I would make the right one in a heart beat….”How does it feel to know you’re everything I need”… another Spill Canvas lyric. Yep, I’m definitely obsessed.

Man, this day is going by so slowly. But it’s been pretty eventful. I woke up around 10:30 and watched Ground Hog Day, which is a very good movie. Then I had Popeyes for lunch, you can’t go wrong with fried chicken. After having a very pleasant lunch with my mom, Jesse came by for about an hour. We just sat on the couch and watched T.V. We didn’t really talk much. Once he left I got ready for the day. I went to Kmart with my mom where I used my debit card for the first time on a $10 ring that I’m madly in love with. Then I went to my uncle’s house where we hunted for cars in the paper. I was supposed to get an Acura, but it turns out it was too expensive. Tomorrow my uncle and I are going to Hackberry where I’m mostly purchasing a 1999 Nissan Sentra. I’m so excited. I can’t wait for this night to end. Even though today was alright, I really miss Sam. This is really killing me, I guess now I know how he felt a long time ago. It sucks. I guess I’ll just go to bed so I can’t quit thinking about all this. Look forward to tomorrow Keri, you’re getting a car. Smile Keri, Smile!!!!!!Goodnight!

Today was actually a pretty good day. I really didn’t expect it to be. But i was glad to know i still had my best friend. I really didn’t want to lose that friendship because it’s such a great one. I can tell him anything and I know he’s there for me. On a sad note, I ate lunch alone today, but I was totally ok with it, because I’m cool like that. I hope this weekend turns out ok. I have to work tonight but I’m stayin the night at Amy’s house afterwards, so that’s something to look forward to. As for Saturday, I’m supposed to be seeing a movie with Amy and her boyfriend, but boy will that night be tough. No where to go and having to know where someone else is. Not with me. It’s ok, it was my fault. I love him though and totally support him. Man do I love this guy. One day…..

I want to tear up the runway, but he won’t give it back. He won’t let me. He made me who i am now. He helped me take off. He pushed me to the edge and taught me to fly. He taught me to soar. I’m too high now. I can’t see through the clouds and it’s making it hard to land. I want to come down. I want to go back to the way things were. I want to rip off my wings and tear up the runway. But he won’t give it back, or maybe i just don’t want it back.